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"Day is done. Gone the sun..." 

You get the picture. No, it's not the end of the world and the Sun will rise again, but my romantical love life is dead, kinda, a little bit, almost, in a way, it seems. Thank God life ain't always what it seems. I could just look at it as a hiatus. Yeah, that's it. ...a break. It's not broke...n. It still works. sigh Dear old Dick is just who he is, doing what he does, but I'm not counting the days...or months. I'm keeping track of the years, though. 

I've put myself back in counseling. I see dating and relationship expert Steve Ward on a somewhat regular basis, whenever a season of Tough Love is airing on VH-1. I felt like a bad, Black comedienne and actress for not having seen the movie Think Like A Man, so I accidentally got a refresher session while watching that, too. Burned my britches to know I'm still making a couple of my biggest mistakes, so I'm glad Dick and I have been distant.

Dear Dick,

I don't miss you nearly as much as I used to miss you. I know you're always there. Heck, you're hanging around everywhere I go. I'm not checking for you or anything. I just know you'll be there when I'm ready for you. 

I still have nothing but love for you. 

Until we meet again...

Love, 

Me

I can't believe it's over...for now.

I'm pretty devastated. I have secretly been in this relationship...well, an affair based on, um, finances you could say. I've been seeing someone for many years and now it's over...as I know it. It's all because of this stupid economy. Money causes so many problems in relationships. We all know that. Anyway, I'd been seeing this guy for several years. I never got to go to his place. He'd always come to me, so... Anyway, every time I'd hear him pulling up to my apt building I would run to  greet him at my door, sometimes from the balcony, with great anticipation. We saw each other almost everyday for weeks, months on end. We both relocated from foreign lands - he's from Mexico and I'm from Ohio - so holidays were when we needed and saw each other the most...and then we'd take a break. We never lost touch, though. Sometimes we spent more time in each others' company than others. But a couple of years ago it kind of cooled off. I had lost my job. We still saw one another on occasion and he was always so sweet and giving, but sometimes he'd act like he didn't have anything for me anymore. Well, today I saw him. I approached him and told him that I didn't like not seeing him the way I used to and he blamed me. And then he informed me he's back with his wife and they just found out she's expecting. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? AND THEY PLANNED IT! What could I say?
I wanted to explain to him that it's not my fault that the economy took the turn it did and kept me from shopping online as much as I used to do. What I wouldn't give to go on Dooney & Bourkes clearance, or QVC and HSN online and just GO CRAZY...but I can't afford to do that anymore. So he has no reason to come see me anymore. The UPS man. Joaquin, I miss you. I hope before I leave this apartment you and I can rekindle what we once had.